I put up my Christmas tree today in attempt to cheer myself up a bit. I typically do it the day after Thanksgiving. I go out Black Friday shopping, take a nap, put up the tree and then wrap presents for hours. I didn’t do any of this yesterday because I had Thanksgiving dinner a day late and I spent the better part of the day mopey. I just wasn’t in the mood.
Although I totally understand why the guy I’ve been dating made the decision to stop seeing me I am still sad. It hurts even though I speculated this might be how things were going to turn out. So today when I got home, I ran to the store for wrapping paper, bows and ribbon. I came home, set-up the tree and spent the next couple of hours wrapping, and decorating. It gave my mind something else to focus on.
It kind of helped. My son came home and was surprised to find I had accomplished so much. I love Christmas and just hope I can get out of this funk before the holiday really gets going. I want to enjoy the holidays with friends and family. I don’t want to stay focused on what I think I am missing out on.
In other news I have been asked out twice in two days. I forgot how much I usually get asked out because I had been focused on one guy. (Not that I mind focusing on one guy.) Men have asked me out over the past few months, I just said no. Either I look really cute when I am sad or men can sense that I am not attached anymore. It is weird how that seems to happen. But I love getting attention. I am just in no rush to jump right back into dating. Maybe soon… but not yet. I need more time to pout about having to start all over and having to sleep with no one to cuddle.