I have been thinking a lot about what this leg of my journey is trying to teach me. I know what I want and what it seems like I am lacking. I want love, not platonic love but someone who loves me because they want to. I want someone to love me the way I have feel love for others. I grew up without a real sense of what unconditional love meant but was bestowed a gift in return. I learned to love unconditionally. I try to love everyone with an open heart and without stipulation. I have always been good at just loving people.
Sometimes I think I fill my heart up with so much love that I don’t really make room to feel the love of others. Other times I just think that I can’t feel it because it really isn’t there and maybe that is what I need to learn, maybe I just need to work on loving others. Maybe I am still learning that my love for me is really enough. Maybe I need to understand that putting love out into the world is just as important as having someone love you.
Everything terrible is something that needs our love. – Rainer Maria Rilke
Lorna's Voice
/ August 19, 2012Unconditional love? That’s hard to come by. I know animals are great at giving it, but people? not so much. We have a way of placing expectations on other people or on situations. It’s really hard, at least for me, not to have expectations.
trjensen
/ August 19, 2012I have been subjected to and partof some very bad things in my life. Aa result I think my expectations of people aren’t always the highest. I find this presents me with more opportunities to be pleasantly suprised than disappointed. I also believe that in some ways expectations not being met can be an opportunity becasuse we can find lessons in it. How can you not love that? Some people I love from afar but I try to see the good in everyone. I have lived most of my life helping others and not for my benefit, aside from having them in my life I suppose. Of course the people I am deeply emotionally bonded to I do more for but I truly feel love for the people in my life.
Lorna's Voice
/ August 20, 2012I hadn’t thought of things from your perspective. And I do agree that forgiveness and a heart filled with love is as close to unconditional love as it can get.