Can I just say that I can’t remember the last time I was really this unhappy. I mean I am really unhappy! That alone is depressing enough to me.
I haven’t been writing much. My financial situation is still pretty precarious and I have been too busy trying to find any job that I haven’t had time to think about anything positive. A friend who owes me a lot of money said he’d have the bulk of this month’s rent for me then went and partied it all away. I was counting on it and now a little over week before rent is due I am fucking stuck in the same position I was last month.
I am angry and fucking hurt and scared fucking shitless. It seems I am incapable of being nice to anyone at the moment. I am snapping at everyone. I feel really on edge. I truly feel like I am losing control of everything. Hopefully things will get back on track soon. I may be able to go and live with a friend in July but I have a lot to do before that can happen.
Hopefully I’ll have something positive to say soon.
Hugs
Teri
Nhan-Fiction
/ May 20, 2012You’re a tough one. I am sure you will persevere just fine.
More Than A Blonde
/ May 20, 2012(((Hugs))) It will all get better.
trjensen
/ May 20, 2012I know it will! Thank you so much for always being there with a kind word! I love you for that. I think I may just need a change of scenery. I have a friend who wants me to come live with her in Georgia in July.
All I want is to come up with a solid outline for my book and start writing. I just can’t do it while I am stressed and angry like this. Right now it would be a how to guide to killing anyone who looks at you. LOL! That is not the book I want to write.
I truly appreciate you sooo much beautiful! I am just so sick of explaining my situation and openly whining here. That is not what my blog was ever intended for. I haven’t been updating much because I haven’t been able to focus on the positive. It has been a long time since I couldn’t find the good in a situation but I will appreciate the lessons when I see them. That I know. Then I can write about it all!
bestbathroombooks
/ May 20, 2012Hang in there. Hopefully your friends will come through for you, unlike the partying dickwad.
renxkyoko
/ May 21, 2012I don’t read any of my fav blogs for over a month, and this is what i read. U_U
hang in there, trjensen. You’re a tough cookie !
trjensen
/ May 23, 2012I’ll get through it.
MysteryCoach
/ May 21, 2012We all need support and to vent now and then. That’s part of what blogging is about, to me anyway.
Your friend there is a turd who owes you the money and partied it away… geez.
Hang in there darlin… it will work itself out.
SophiaOnline
/ May 21, 2012You will surely make it through. Keep your head above the waters and trust God the creator and maker of all.
Hang in there…xx
silentlyheardonce
/ May 21, 2012It’ll work out some how, it always does. Just hang in there.
theforgottenwife
/ May 21, 2012Hang in there. I’m having my own financial woes right now. But it’ll get better….I just know it. Course, that won’t pay the rent, but if you don’t have hope, what the hell do you have? I’m thinking about you!
dribblingpensioner
/ May 21, 2012I don’t think much of your friend, i hope it turns out right for you.
nancyelizabethlauzon
/ May 22, 2012Sorry to hear about your troubles, Teri. Thinking positive thoughts for you
trjensen
/ May 23, 2012Thanks Hon!
Pink Ninjabi
/ May 22, 2012You’re definitely going through a wave of change as it can be hard to know who your friends are until the tide hits. I keep singing “What About Your Friends” by TLC as a reminder. Much prayers and love to you!
Pink.
eof737
/ May 27, 2012Hope this coming week is brighter for you…
Cakes McCain
/ June 1, 2012I send you big hugs! you’re awesome!
trjensen
/ June 1, 2012Thanks Cakes!