Can I just say that I can’t remember the last time I was really this unhappy.  I mean I am really unhappy!  That alone is depressing enough to me.

I haven’t been writing much.  My financial situation is still pretty precarious and I have been too busy trying to find any job that I haven’t had time to think about anything positive.  A friend who owes me a lot of money said he’d have the bulk of this month’s rent for me then went and partied it all away.  I was counting on it and now a little over week before rent is due I am fucking stuck in the same position I was last month.

I am angry and fucking hurt and scared fucking shitless.  It seems I am incapable of being nice to anyone at the moment.  I am snapping at everyone.  I feel really on edge.  I truly feel like I am losing control of everything.  Hopefully things will get back on track soon.  I may be able to go and live with a friend in July but I have a lot to do before that can happen.

Hopefully I’ll have something positive to say soon.

Hugs

Teri