So I have had a rough day. I am having some serious financial difficulties. (Like I may be homeless come the end of the month difficulties.) I have not really talked about it to anyone until today. I got on Facebook and talked the GwtS.
GwtS: i’m sorry you’re having bad day
Me: It sucks because I really have no one to lean on when you are busy. At least I know you care when I am having a rough time.
GwtS: i doooo 
Me: I know you do It means a lot. I really don’t have anyone, ya know?
GwtS: me neither
Me: You can always talk to me. No matter what.
GwtS: i know
Me: Hopefully soon you can take me drinking.
GwtS: i’m humping on 2 women 1 in the works you still want to hangout????
Me: Are you trying to be mean?
GwtS: no
That really happened! He just fucking said that to me like it was no big deal!!!! The only guy I have had real feelings for in years just made me feel like I was just a series orfices. My night went from a bad night to one of the worst nights of my life. It is three in the morning. I have migraine from crying and he had the audacity to call and ask me to come over and talk to him about what is going on with me because he cares about me after he said that shit.
I am truly heartbroken and it has been so long since I have felt that way about anyone that I literally feel like I am going to die. I am so hurt. I feel like someone just ripped my heart out of my body through my throat and did the fucking jig on it until it was just a pile of goo.
What do you do when the one person who always made you feel like everything was going to be alright just made you feel like you never meant shit? I don’t know how to deal with this.
Too creative for this life
/ April 19, 2012What a terrible thing to do. So sorry. Your tags say it all.
Cakes McCain
/ April 19, 2012fuck sakes! Sex on the brain or what? CLUELESS! Don’t sweat it Teri, chalk it up to the dumb-guy mentality. Who needs it? There’s better. NEeeeeeeXT!!!!! (and you’re gonna be just fine)
Jueseppi B.
/ April 19, 2012I am not qualified to comment on this post because I am one who thinks about dating, communicating and relationships in a different realm. I am Old School when it comes to dating and real life relationships.
I can tell you I am so sorry you are dealing with this shit in your life. People can be very selfish and cruel in how they treat others. Telling you to move on and forget this dickless asstroll is not going to help you, I don’t know how to help you get past the heartache.
I was homeless for 127 days because of my ex wife, you do not want to go to that level of living. I donate every dime I don’t use every month to a local homeless shelter, but if you get backed up against a wall, I will donate that money to you instead of the shelter.
Thats all I got TJ….let me know how you are doing.
jblb2628@yahoo.com
dribblingpensioner
/ April 19, 2012I would advise not to get in tough with him again, if his sex life comes before helping a friend in need, he needs to sort himself out.
I don’t know what money you owe, but the first thing i did was cut up all credit cards and cheque books35 years ago, i have not owed any money to anyone since. Also cut back on the social life .
totsymae1011
/ April 19, 2012I will second Jueseppi in helping you if you need help. I’m sorry you’re hurting. It takes so much courage to put your heart out to love again and you’ve been so frank in your feelings. I wish I could at least give you a hug, as I don’t know what to say regarding the careless statement made by this guy.
lizajack25
/ April 19, 2012I think it was his clumsy way of saying, ‘yeah, I want to be with you but don’t expect too much. I’m having sex with other women. Just letting you know.’
Sorry it hurts so much. X
wildgeesethatfly
/ April 19, 2012I’m sorry dear. I hope things get better fast.
nancyelizabethlauzon
/ April 19, 2012So sorry to hear this. The sooner you cut him out of your life the better. I know that’s not what you want to hear, but it’s true. Would you really want a guy like that in your life anyway? Imagine what living with him would be like. Wondering if he’s boinking other women? I’d go insane. Hope you feel better soon.
The Old Heave Ho
/ April 19, 2012I think there is some kind of douche baggery going around.
financial wise I can relate too on praying it works out.
a2realhousewife
/ April 19, 2012I am very sorry you are having such a rough time.
emarie24
/ April 19, 2012I hope everything works out financially for you! Also, that was a dick thing of him to say, but maybe lizajack was right. Maybe he was just doesn’t want to get in to an awkward situation and just wants you to know. But still a dick way to put it.
daterofboys
/ April 19, 2012Oh dear! Things will be ok…I sense an upswing for you, soon
And, at least you know not to waste any more time and attention on that fuckwad (truly all he is, if he’s so nonchalant about peoples’ lives and feelings).
Riversandbluesky
/ April 19, 2012So sorry precious one! I can hear the aching in your heart and would love to help bring you comfort! If you just need to get away for a day or two, I have a place up the Gorge where you could stay that is very comfortable, quiet and full of beauty and solitude. Hugs!
PDX Running Chick
/ April 19, 2012I’m sorry you’re going through a rough spot, and I’m sorry he was a dick when you needed him to be more. If you lived in Oregon I’d take you drinking!
More Than A Blonde
/ April 19, 2012All I can do is offer you a big warm hug. And from everything I have read here you have more support than you may realize. (((HUGS)))
The Wandering Mind
/ April 19, 2012He’s not what you need in your life. He’s juggling a baby, baby mama & now multiple women. He’s only thinking of himself right now. Things can only get better for you. *hug*
ifUseekAmy
/ April 19, 2012I hope everything turns around for you real soon! You have a huge support system here in the blogoverse, so be sure to lean on us! As for his mean words to you…remember that nothing he can say to you can break you. They may sting, but you are so much stronger than you are giving yourself credit for right now.
JT Justis HSP
/ April 19, 2012Not offering platitudes of any sort, simply sending, big, warm, strong hugs of encouragement that we come through this together to be the strong, survivors we are. I, too, am on the curb shortly if nothing changes. One months rent from it. I, too, have been razored in two emotionally by thoughtless and intentional hurt from those I care about. Still stitching myself together… slowly… wishing you all the love, light and healing I can. Another thing that strikes me is a piece by Talin Orfali on losing our manners in society. I personally think technology is to blame, it desensitizes humans to the point they will say and do things they would never do in front of their parents, children, peers, colleagues etc because they know how ignorant it would sound and how terrible they would look. Instead they are insensitive louts right there on the “EVERNET” (as I call it) for all the world to see forever. Like I said, ignorant. You, however are not, Crazy Chickie, the opposite in fact. Much love from one who walks with you in more ways than you know
xo
Pink Ninjabi
/ April 19, 2012By liking your post, I’m horrified by what he said, but amazed that you let it all out to vent with us. Life can really grab us by the guttural at times, and shock us, leaving us breathless. It is obvious that this individual is quite self-centred, and didn’t care to focus on you, and your feelings. You deserve so much more than you realize as I believe you receive many awards for this reason. Don’t ever let anyone, especially arses, tell you differently. Easier said than done, I know.
But one of these days, you are going to look back on this day, ten years from now, with some amazing life with glamourous footwear, comfort, and beliefs in yourself that won’t be shaken by the nerve of some idiots who forget to be kind. As in, this ostrich head is just an ostrich head. And you’re meant to see much more than just sand holes.
Pink.
silentlyheardonce
/ April 19, 2012Look inside yourself. Inside you, you will find the strength you need. You are a strong woman your writing says so. You are confident and you will figure out what you need to do. You will get pass this and be the true survivor. No one can make you strong when you have that power to make yourself. So wipe those tears and find some help with your financial situation.
mysterycoach
/ April 19, 2012I read you other post and then I was like, what happened!? I came back to this one… WHAT A DOUCHE BAG ! omg ! Assssshollllleeeeoooo!!!
I’m sorry, he’s a turd. BIG turd. That’s fucked up. Imbecile that he is… ugh… you want me to kick his ass for ya?
thefutureofhope
/ April 19, 2012Wow. Hunny, I am truly sorry he had the audacity. It reminds me of a song that I used to A LOT to get through asshats that I lent my heart to. It is called Longest Road by Morgan Page. It is your life, it is your time, and this is getting you no where. Life is waiting for you. And, though you’re staring at a very scary scape, it is the best one to travel because anywhere is up from here and you can make the most of it all. You deserve better and will have better!
The Drunk Archer
/ April 20, 2012I will really love to go all he’s an animal! He’s not worth it! and all that… but we already know that. but it’s now about you. I want you to not beat yourself up for liking a crappy dude… because you are not crap. He’s the crap that wore a suit and sprayed cologne and now it’s all wearing off. Just search yourself and grow from it. don’t get hard and go all “men are assholes.” because they’re not all THAT bad and years from now you’ll look back and be able to say “eeewww. what did i ever see in that?”
Summer
/ April 20, 2012Wow. Sorry you’re going through all this. He certainly isn’t helping the situation. I can’t believe he chose that moment to say that!
Viciously Sweet
/ April 20, 2012I am so sorry about your day! And I’m sorry I missed reading this yesterday. I hope everything gets better for you and if you are in need maybe I can help too. I hope everyday just gets better for you!
silly_G
/ April 21, 2012Ah Teri, what a jerk. So sorry your’re going through all this.
lizziecracked
/ April 21, 2012oh fudgesicles… I don;t know what to say.. don;t know if i have anything that hasn;t been said.. your question.. it has been my experience that ..ok well the one who did that to me.. I don;t want to say all men but it is kinda a fact that they are fixers we are talkers … if you throw something that they dont know quite how to fix they will divert.. and maybe after pondering it for awhile..come back to you and offer help.. at a different time..maybe you would have laughed his ridiculously thoughtless and so wrong answer off but you weren;t in that place when he said it.. the fact that he called at three in the morning asking you to come over says.. he has been thinking about it and has possibly come up with enough of a fix to face it and help you…or that ( idont know where this part is at ) a good tossing might help get your mind off it and show you his support.. either way..he was thinking of you.. and probably does want to help… maybe at the time he said it he just couldn;t put the energy into it.. you know him,,so I guess you would have to know, I am so sorry you are hurting and stressing.. I wish I could help.. Lizzie..
trjensen
/ April 21, 2012I think what hurts me most is I just needed a friend and what he said implied that if we aren’t sleeping to gether he can’t be there for me. After a lot of thought I know that isn’t what he meant. He isn’t ready to deal with what I am feeling and he has been acting accordingly. He is having sex with random women and he wants me to know what he is doing. His delivery was fucked but he was trying to tell me he doesn’t want to be tied to me and he also doesn’t want to just add me to the rotation because he sees me differently than these girls he is sleeping with.
I think he really just wanted to say that we aren’t where I wanted to be and it was bothering him that it was happening and he hadn’t told me. What he didn’t understand was I just needed him. His penis couldn’t fix what was going on with me and I think that after our conversation he realized I just really wanted to cry on his shoulder. He called me for two days straight asking me if I still needed him and wanting to see me.
I know he felt bad but I couldn’t do it. He made my hurt worse whether or not that is what he intended. I finally texted him yesterday and told him that I really felt like we were having two different conversations and that I would like to talk. I care very much about him but what he said was so insenstive. I don’t think I will ever look at him the same way. He can be really passive aggresive when it comes to me. He doesn’t say something to me and then his guilt just wells up inside him until he is angry and just blurts something out.
It doen’t excuse the way he spoke to me but I really do believe that in some capacity he will be in my life. I love him but I also care about him in this maternal way. He leans on me too. Just no more sex. I can’t do that to myself. I love him but I love me way more.
lizziecracked
/ April 21, 2012Go You! Sounds like after having some time to reflect you see the forest for the trees…or something sage and wise (crackish ) like that… the guy who was that guy for me… ran away and got married two months after he left.. big mistake and he knows it and we .used to remain very close but I cried too many nights when he would call and blurt out some stupid insensitive crap.. especially if i just needed to talk …needed..we were actually engaged..he was my best friend and some of his issues had more to do with narcotic pain killer abuse BUT like you said knowing the reasons doesn;t excuse the actions… the last time I spoke to him he was complaining about his spouses particular ..hygene issues.. and I just got fed up with being there for him and him not for me…I said I don;t give a shit.. you married her.. you made that choice..no one forced you too… so quit bitching especially to me of all people.. me..the love of your ever loving god forsaken life before drugs…he left me for that, can;t stand her and then has the gall to bitch to me…
but what got me to the point of being that way was that when I needed him badly.. he flaked on me and said the most insensitive stupid shit I have ever heard come out of his mouth.. and two days later came back and asked me what i need he was sory I said nothing.. I needed you two days ago and you did that and I got through it on my own like I have been for awhile …so nothing..he practicaly blew up my phone for the next three days and I didn;t answer. wow.. oh crap I am on a rant here … my point.. youre e right there is no excuse and you feel the way you feel ..there is nothing wrong with your feelings… why do guys always think their penis is the answer to any problem? I would say by his actions now he probably feels like a first class boob for not recognizing you needed his friendship and kicking himself for choosing that moment and that way to let you know about his ..affairs… not much comfort in that thoguh and it sucks big dog um bones that he had to show his ..butt like that . I am so in awe of your stregth and sensibility as far as things about life.. your live and learn..no mistakes only..lessons? hmm I don;t know how you say it but I get it when you do
is very much how I look at things it sucls when its a bone headed thing like this that teaches a lesson but this one could have gone either way.. his idiotic foolishness could have taught you that you really have to deal with your shit on your own… but instead you found out that you don’t .. lordy I really am rambling now sorry… stay strong.. It sucks sometimes..its lonley as all hell and back sometimes but things change all he time and you have people that care and you are who you were meant to be..or getting there for sure 
and if he cant keep up it really truly is his loss and it just makes way for ….possibilities… <3