So I have had a rough day. I am having some serious financial difficulties. (Like I may be homeless come the end of the month difficulties.) I have not really talked about it to anyone until today. I got on Facebook and talked the GwtS.
GwtS: i’m sorry you’re having bad day
Me: It sucks because I really have no one to lean on when you are busy. At least I know you care when I am having a rough time.
GwtS: i doooo
Me: I know you do It means a lot. I really don’t have anyone, ya know?
GwtS: me neither
Me: You can always talk to me. No matter what.
GwtS: i know
Me: Hopefully soon you can take me drinking.
GwtS: i’m humping on 2 women 1 in the works you still want to hangout????
Me: Are you trying to be mean?
That really happened! He just fucking said that to me like it was no big deal!!!! The only guy I have had real feelings for in years just made me feel like I was just a series orfices. My night went from a bad night to one of the worst nights of my life. It is three in the morning. I have migraine from crying and he had the audacity to call and ask me to come over and talk to him about what is going on with me because he cares about me after he said that shit.
I am truly heartbroken and it has been so long since I have felt that way about anyone that I literally feel like I am going to die. I am so hurt. I feel like someone just ripped my heart out of my body through my throat and did the fucking jig on it until it was just a pile of goo.
What do you do when the one person who always made you feel like everything was going to be alright just made you feel like you never meant shit? I don’t know how to deal with this.