I often find myself pondering who I think I really am. I decided to make a list of things I think define me. Then I thought I should share it and I am not sure how comfortable I am with that. I hand wrote the list but typed it for you so it was legible and because a friend of mine once said I had the handwriting of a serial killer. This is very personal but I always share personal information so here it is.
I am introspective
I am observant
I don’t see things in me that other people do and I am often surprised at how I try to conform to other people’s views of me
I second guess myself constantly
I am self-obsessed. I spend a lot of time examining and think about myself
I tend to obsess over anything I am interested in. Most of this comes off as overenthusiasm or insecurity
I over think everything
I tend think about myself in the third person when I am uncomfortable
I often pretend I am somewhere other than where I actually am
I struggle with body image. I don’t try to manipulate my weight. I just think I don’t see myself the way others see me.
I get nervous around attractive men.
I have had a tremor since I was a kid and I hate it.
I am pretty shy.
I am loud and don’t really care.
I think I am more attractive than I probably am
I think I have trouble with men because I am off (weird, strange, doing something wrong)
I don’t have nearly as many intimate encounters with men as I would like to
I am a writer
I think I have ADHD
I think I am socially awkward
I am not patient
I spend a lot of time alone and sometimes I hate that
I mother too much
I am a smart ass
I have a hard time apologizing for anything
I am optimistic
I have trust issues
I have my mother’s smile
I feel really dumb most of the time
I love to laugh
I am pretty good judge of character although sometimes I ignore red flags and people assume I am naïve
I have a hard time sitting still
I play favorites
I am kind of a pervert
I always have a preference
I say I am not mad when I am
Aside from that I am pretty honest
I am open and a terrible liar